Hm.. I don't really know what to write here. But I feel like putting something that will give you all a glimpse of who I am and what I think about art and other things.

First things first, I'm Bisexual. I'm not afraid to write it down and am not ashamed of it. I think the world should become more open minded about true love and how others feel. I noticed that many students of my school are in a relationship and they simply don't care about personnality at all. They just want sex and nothing more, the hell with personnal stuff, aslong as they do it. I think it's stupid. You should be with someone you love and be able to be loved back in the same way.

I've been bullied when I was young, and I have to admit I have been bullied and still am getting at 17 years old. But now people treat me differently, the ones who bully me get hated by others because others.. think I am a great person. I don't see why they would think I am a great person, I hate somethings about myself and always will. I never was someone who was able to speak up for himself, and I still can't do it very well. But I learned that going with the flow, and having fun in life is what makes you gain confidence, both in yourself and in your friends. When I was in middle school I was a nerd shall we say, I was the kind of person who was nice with anyone, but no one ever cared much about me. I had my cousins who came at our grandparents house and we had lots of fun together. Friends are a great thing to have, they help you out when you need them. I'm too friendly sometimes, it's one of my faults. Can't say I attract too many girls, lots of them say Im good looking, but I don't really care.. What's important is that I'm healthy and happy, even if sometimes I wish I was built like a brick-shit... There are things in life you can have, and things you can't.

Love for me? Well...Heheh! I had a few girl friends before..But it never lasted long, I didn't have that 'Feeling' they loved me, but I couldn't give them the love in return. I could have tried, but I just can't. Guess I really am a shy guy, if it weren't for that, I'd surely be much happier than what I was before. As for guys, hm. Guys are the most complicated thing for me, I have this curse, my curse is that I always fall in love with a guy who likes girls. Hell it's not my fault, I become friends with the dude and have good times with him, but sometimes when I really like that guy; I just want to hug him. I've failed many times so far with guys, I won't give up yet. But I also lost good friendships because of my feelings for them. I'm sorry that I told them how I felt. But it was true, and living with lies.. is something I can't do.

My art, I'm not an artist, I never will be. I draw yes, but I have no talents at all. People like my drawings, but I only see improvements. My cousin is one of the main reasons I started drawing anime, and I am so happy that she helped me out. I keep on drawing for the sole purpose of making her happy when seeing that I've improved at least a little. Why you might ask that I critisize my work so much? Because, mainly... I have many friends who draw, they all have their styles of course, and mine is different I guess. I want to be good, but they always seem to attract more attention than me when it comes for drawings. So I'm guessing that if my drawings don't catch teacher eyes, or other students, then it must be ugly. I like my drawings of course, I make them with everything I have. I want to work in the animation things, I want to make video games. It's kind of a dream, but I've had a change of plan lately.. I was thinking of becoming an english teacher, or maybe an arts teacher. Only time will tell of course. I have a bad side, when it comes to art. I'm jealous maybe, but I won't hesitate to write this. Everyone who has backstabbed me, and mocked my drawings. Everyone who has thought bad of me, who said that I was not equal to them. Those who have bullied me, those who have gone even as far as to hurt my feelings both in my artist soul and my heart.. I just hope you all find someone good for you in life, and never see me ever again. I hope you live your life to the fullest, have kids or whatever and don't ever bother me EVER again. I'm gonna get a girlfriend, or maybe a boyfriend, who knows. All I know, is that I'm not gonna stop living just because they made me feel awhful for a long part of my life. This is my last year in highschool, and it's gonna be my best year. I'm gonna live for myself, and if someone comes to bother me. Heh, I'll show that person who I am

~cloud124 (DAN!! )